Wow! I can't believe how time flies ~~ ~~ (time flying ;oD) ... Yes, I have been lost in facebook-land and finding that I've gotten my feelings hurt there, which no one really knows about nor would care, I do believe. I won't go into the boring details but for some reason I up and "unfriended" 20 people about 10 days ago. I miss some of them, yet most of the ones were people I rarely heard anything from, some absolutely NOTHING ... and others were friends of a friend whose friend hurt my feelings (or, I should say, I allowed! my feelings to be hurt?!) so I just said heck with it ... I did keep a few people from that "tribe" as we'd called ourselves, as they've been so very kind and loving ... I would get angry when people would talk about facebook as "fakebook" and that the friends weren't real but imaginary. I'd defend that and say that this group of people were like minded for me and spiritually centered ... and yet funny and a little bit risque even! But, alas, it is what it is .... I never would have known them if I hadn't been on facebook.......which has taken me away from talking to friends on the phone, too busy to do the dishes, too enthralled to write letters (which I truly love to do!), too "curious" to read the many volumes of books I always loved to read ... in other words, I do believe I've been addicted to facebook. I'm thinking of shit-canning it altogether, leaving it intact and putting it on the back burner to see if I can come up with enough of a life which isn't lived in e-virtual-ness enough to actually have a friend over, or visit one, or write to one or talk to one! There's a lot of talk about what "we" could, would, want to, will do on there, but most live tons of miles away .... I can barely get a peep out of people I actually DO know or family members! So those virtual strangers I'd met have been a big part of my life the past 6 months or more ... which is a lot of time when it is intensified.......but to feel excluded, shunned, "restricted" is to go smack back to elementary school when I was so painfully shy and would try to go up to a little group of girls on the playground and hang around them, inevitably one or more would annoyingly look at me and say, "What do YOU want, NOSEY!" That's exactly what it felt like ... just not being good enough or ??? enough to fit in with someone who really should mean nothing to me at all!? Go figure!
I was so thrilled just now when I bopped on here and saw a favorite bloggie Soul post a comment to my last entry! Just yesterday she wrote to me! How exciting! and another one posted a comment I haven't responded to yet but I sooooo appreciated his acknowledgment of my little goofy story and how he and his wife could relate about buying very expensive frameless glasses that I am paranoid I'll scratch or break ... and have to be soooo careful cleaning them!
There is a certain instant gratification with facebook that I don't get here because a lot of my ol' blogger buddies don't seem to be posting either. We all go through different phases ... like the moon, which tonight, by the way, looked like that big Cheshire Cat grin which I love to see up in the dark black sky!!! I see it at the most opportune moments when I'm feeling low or sad.....without realizing it's up there, I'll often catch a glimpse of it and it ALWAYS makes me smile and even laugh out loud ... from the little fingernail crescent to the big grin just before the half moon.....I do like simple pleasures and I do love communicating with others, and how wonderful when those others can be like minded........or at least tolerant of other points of views without judgment.
Perhaps letting facebook sit awhile to stew in its juices (and oh, there's so MUCH of those on there! a veritable hodgepodge of just ANYTHING instantly!) .... perhaps that would allow me to keep up my good work with my new vegetarian eating style ... a healthier regimen of walking ... getting that hula hoop I've wanted for several years now! Afterall, sitting in front of the computer at work, or on the phone at work ... then come home and jump on the computer to stare at facebook after a very quick scan of my regular emails ... well, let's just say "secretarial spread" is a big problem of the keester! Oh, and speaking of keesters!!! My "new-to-me" 2007 Saturn Aura is equipped with butt warmer seats! They are coming in pretty darned handy in this very cold weather we are having. Last night was the first snow that actually stayed on the ground. But then it was bright and sunshiny all day as opposed to yesterday's gloomiest, rainiest day ever ... 2-1/2" and then turned to snow overnight @;@ But what do I expect for Nov. 30th!?
Today is my nephew's 29th birthday. I miss him. I haven't seen him since May of 2007 when we told him he couldn't live here any more. I guess he showed us, eh? Never one communication from him since ... and he even had a little boy and never told us. Well, I'm kind of used to being that SisSTAR of the C.O.D.E., that Childless...Orphaned...Daughter...of Enlightenment. It isn't always enlightening to realize your family doesn't care enough about you to contact you for years on end, or that your family equals 2 humans and a cat ^;^ but that's the way it is. It's a good family, though, even though Cat scratched the crap out of my hand yesterday! He was ticked off because it was pouring rain and his shelters we made for him outside were all wet and soggy with no chance to replace them yet ... and he hates to stay inside too much, even with a foot of snow! So he was a big grouch and I was massaging his little toes - WRONG!! He teased me by spreading his paw so I could give him Mama's famous "kitty massage" and "little toes" massage when he struck quick and hard and I have 8 claw marks on my right hand to prove it. I like to call it my vaccination from him ... as I used to be allergic to cats but don't seem so much with him...........unless I am just deluded because I love him so much............and he bites the hand that feeds him! ............well, that's it for another day, Bloggie Souls! I'd love to hear from you!! I hope the new year will be a new time to reconnect and elevate our consciousnesses to greater degrees...........with Love, Truth, Justice, Compassion, Tolerance, Kindness...and did I say LOVE?
with Love.........from your SisSTAR XOXOXOXOXO
SisSTARS for PEACE
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"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them--that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." -Lao-Tse
"The fates lead him who will--him who won't, they drag." -Seneca
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them--that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." -Lao-Tse
"The fates lead him who will--him who won't, they drag." -Seneca
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Happy Sunday!
Since I logged in to post a comment on good bloggie friend Muhd's great post about new kitties showing up at their front door, I may as well say "hello" to my good ol' blog! I'm sorry I've been neglecting you, Dear Blog. I've met the most wonderful people while on here and I won't forget them ... even if seemingly neglecting my "duties" here to write and rambling on about just any little thing at all. Yes, Facebook has got me! There's a community of "newer" facebookies (as I love to call them) that are hanging in there with RaeBird and her mother as her mother is close to transitioning beyond this Dimension ... she stated that we were all like their hospice, and what a humbling honor it is to feel a part of giving comfort to her in any way...............and I am still keeping in good touch with Dancin' Fool (Natalie, you sweetie!) over in the UK ... stole some Frank Zappa tunes off her yesterday which immediately RaeBird said she loved, and that made me happy.
Yesterday it was like Feast Day for me and Jeff......after doing our banking we went to Simply Zaa! Pizza for theri $5 all-you-can-eat pizza and salad bar buffet and I had 2 great bowls of salad fit for a REAL vegetarian and found even TWO great veggie pizzas (well, except in Vegan-land, the cheese was a no-no but I'm getting there) ... there was the Popeye spinach pizza and the wonderful tomato slices with an array of herbs ... all was delicious and Jeff got to watch the MSU-UM game (MSU won!!! yay! for Jeff) ... then we hung out around home (on the computer etc etc) and spent time with Tuffy Boy and went "looking" at Sally's (Salv Army) and, in an unusual twist of fate, I found nothing. I found that to be wonderful, actually, having just gotten rid of about 30!!! (yes!) bags of STUFF for the Vietnam Vets to come and pick up ... I am not real keen on adding to the new slimmed-down pile of STUFF .......and feel much more discerning, for now anyway. Then we went to the unwelcome chore of grocery shopping at Hollywood Mkt! It turned out we had a ball getting all kinds of tasty and healthy stuff ... we were nearly out of everything so it was a whopper $$ ... and then we no sooner got it hauled in and put away but our good bud Gary showed up for us all to go up to the corner Thai Restaurant (Pud Thai & Sushi) and I enjoyed 2 new dishes: their Apple Salad and Vegetable Tempure...YUM! It was great, as was the miso soup. We came home and indulged in dessert then watched some Tiger baseball (sniff! sorry, but they lost the play-offs but they gave it a hell of a good shot!) Jeff is at this moment watching our Detroit Lions playing ... the best season they've had in like aeons! I got up between 5:30 and 9 am then decided to go back to bed and "read" awhile ... and finally got back up at 11 am. Still in my bathrobe at 1:45 pm!!! It's a lazy-ass day for me so far..........I have laundry to do and it would PROBABLY be a great idea if we ate at HOME today, don't you think?? 2 restaurants in 1 day! How totally hedonistic of us! Let's just say we munched into the groceries big time ... and I was in a carbo-coma when the baseball game was going on. When they basically lost in the 3rd inning, the mood had a downturn in the house of some disappointment ... and Gary went home an hour early as he had to get up early to work this morning. I think Jeff spent more time on the computer ... dreaming of some NEW computer he wants "on his wish list". You see our Windows Media Player will NOT work any more, no matter what, even deleting it and reinstalling a new one ... something messed it up a long time ago and he can't play games, we can't play music or I can't download any photos ... and that's just shitty! So one of these days ... "Santa Claus" is always a good reason - haha! though we don't believe in Santa any more or even Christmas ... but it WILL BE my 60th!!!!!!! birthday and our 26th anniversary right around then, so perhaps a new computer is on the horizon. I want a 2nd pair of eyeglasses for my birthday.........I love my new pair and my new sunglasses, they were so expensive. I want a 2nd pair just to feel really RICH! and to give me some sort of variety of eyeball dressing! Maybe I'll get cat's eye rhinestone encrusted corner thingies!? Something that's fun! We both got "frameless" glasses this time and we love them, but we're so very careful with them ... no cleaning with a Kleenex or a shirt sleeve ... nope! only the special cleaning cloths provided. I lived thru years of seeing through a bunch of scratches and nosepieces gone, long hence having fallen off! (Ouch!) and green funk being left on face in front of my ears where the bows dug into my skin and funkified it! For years!!! So I would like an extra pair ... a true luxury! But, hey! 60!!!!! SIXTY???? Yes! in 2-1/2 months! AHHHHHHHH! OK, I just gotta sign off with that one........it's too scary! @;@ Love from your SisSTAR xoxo
Yesterday it was like Feast Day for me and Jeff......after doing our banking we went to Simply Zaa! Pizza for theri $5 all-you-can-eat pizza and salad bar buffet and I had 2 great bowls of salad fit for a REAL vegetarian and found even TWO great veggie pizzas (well, except in Vegan-land, the cheese was a no-no but I'm getting there) ... there was the Popeye spinach pizza and the wonderful tomato slices with an array of herbs ... all was delicious and Jeff got to watch the MSU-UM game (MSU won!!! yay! for Jeff) ... then we hung out around home (on the computer etc etc) and spent time with Tuffy Boy and went "looking" at Sally's (Salv Army) and, in an unusual twist of fate, I found nothing. I found that to be wonderful, actually, having just gotten rid of about 30!!! (yes!) bags of STUFF for the Vietnam Vets to come and pick up ... I am not real keen on adding to the new slimmed-down pile of STUFF .......and feel much more discerning, for now anyway. Then we went to the unwelcome chore of grocery shopping at Hollywood Mkt! It turned out we had a ball getting all kinds of tasty and healthy stuff ... we were nearly out of everything so it was a whopper $$ ... and then we no sooner got it hauled in and put away but our good bud Gary showed up for us all to go up to the corner Thai Restaurant (Pud Thai & Sushi) and I enjoyed 2 new dishes: their Apple Salad and Vegetable Tempure...YUM! It was great, as was the miso soup. We came home and indulged in dessert then watched some Tiger baseball (sniff! sorry, but they lost the play-offs but they gave it a hell of a good shot!) Jeff is at this moment watching our Detroit Lions playing ... the best season they've had in like aeons! I got up between 5:30 and 9 am then decided to go back to bed and "read" awhile ... and finally got back up at 11 am. Still in my bathrobe at 1:45 pm!!! It's a lazy-ass day for me so far..........I have laundry to do and it would PROBABLY be a great idea if we ate at HOME today, don't you think?? 2 restaurants in 1 day! How totally hedonistic of us! Let's just say we munched into the groceries big time ... and I was in a carbo-coma when the baseball game was going on. When they basically lost in the 3rd inning, the mood had a downturn in the house of some disappointment ... and Gary went home an hour early as he had to get up early to work this morning. I think Jeff spent more time on the computer ... dreaming of some NEW computer he wants "on his wish list". You see our Windows Media Player will NOT work any more, no matter what, even deleting it and reinstalling a new one ... something messed it up a long time ago and he can't play games, we can't play music or I can't download any photos ... and that's just shitty! So one of these days ... "Santa Claus" is always a good reason - haha! though we don't believe in Santa any more or even Christmas ... but it WILL BE my 60th!!!!!!! birthday and our 26th anniversary right around then, so perhaps a new computer is on the horizon. I want a 2nd pair of eyeglasses for my birthday.........I love my new pair and my new sunglasses, they were so expensive. I want a 2nd pair just to feel really RICH! and to give me some sort of variety of eyeball dressing! Maybe I'll get cat's eye rhinestone encrusted corner thingies!? Something that's fun! We both got "frameless" glasses this time and we love them, but we're so very careful with them ... no cleaning with a Kleenex or a shirt sleeve ... nope! only the special cleaning cloths provided. I lived thru years of seeing through a bunch of scratches and nosepieces gone, long hence having fallen off! (Ouch!) and green funk being left on face in front of my ears where the bows dug into my skin and funkified it! For years!!! So I would like an extra pair ... a true luxury! But, hey! 60!!!!! SIXTY???? Yes! in 2-1/2 months! AHHHHHHHH! OK, I just gotta sign off with that one........it's too scary! @;@ Love from your SisSTAR xoxo
Saturday, September 24, 2011
What's in a name?
I just want to say a few things about how I've been longsuffering about being called Kyle. I may have mentioned that my mother always told me I was named after a "pretty young singer on the Arthur Godfrey Show" and since I was born 1951, I don't remember her. I told that story to many of the people who asked me my entire life, "Did they want a boy?" "Were you named after your father?" etc etc. NO!!! Named after Kyle McDonnell (I think that's how she spelled it) and just last year, I believe, I found her by accident on LOOK or LIFE magazine archives and yes, she was pretty and anyone would be pleased to be named after her ... I bet she had quite the time of it being named that in the 30s or 40s!!! When I was just going into junior high (now called middle school...7th grade, anyway) I was assigned to boys' gym class and shop class and very embarrassingly had to go and sign out! of these classes. If only I knew then what I know NOW!! I would have just insisted they let me remain in the classes, that'd show those dingbats!! But I was always and forever teased about having a "boy's name" ... and even my middle name is Lynn which can be a male name, too. Then I like to tell the story about, "Well, my father's and brother's names were Dana Meredith and my mother's name was Jo" HA HA!! They look at me like @;@ .... but it's a great story. I'm tired of telling it, though. Call us androgenous, call us weird ... Hey! on my father's side of 8 boys and 1 girl, there were males named Max Vivien, Francis Leroy, Dana Meredith...I guess those were the andro names ... the only sister was reduced to Dot ... Dorothy Lee.... I have cousins named Mary Lee and Larry Lee, middle names after their father. My dad told me he was also offered entrance into some girls' college in Bennington, Vermont, so it started long ago, as he was born in 1905. I remember being mortified when I was in 6th grade and we had to write letters to the President (who was then JFK) and I was sent a big envelope addressed to MR. KYLE HASWELL!!!!! I was ticked! I tried to erase the "Mr" and put a "Miss" in it but it only blotched up the thing and looked worse. I still to this day get mail addressed to "Mr." and those come-on ads for credit cards or anything else get shredded with gusto! Don't ask me why this still bothers me after all these years, but it just does. I did NOT ask to be named Kyle Lynn!!! When I was a young kid I was very embarrassed by my name and wanted to call myself Lynne ... I thought that looked feminine. Once by some Freudian error I wrote, "My brother was the only girl and I was the only boy" in some journaling I was doing!!!!! I was doing it to myself, even!!! GEEZ! But the reason for this ranting post is that yesterday after work I went to the pharmacy to pick up my prescription and I've gone there quite a long time now ... just before she was ringing it up, she said, "I need his birthdate"!! I had a hard day!! a very hard day working for two psychiatrists' offices where everyone is seemingly more needy now that Autumn has hit or school has started or the weather is getting chilly or summer has ended or ??? who knows? But I could hear the crack in my voice when I replied, "THAT would be ME! That's ME! I am Kyle and my birthdate is 12-28-51!" She never even said a word, just, "of course". OF COURSE??? WTF??? What about an, "Oh, I'm sorry!" LIKE I asked my mother to give me a purported boy's name so I could just fuck with people lifelong! I have girlfriends and girl relatives named Jimi Lee, Georgie, Jeremy, Lynn, Rae .... Once my husband, Jeff, and I got some scathing voicemail message from some weirdo with all sorts of obnoxious sexual innuendos, or rather blatant accusations ... I do believe they thought the "You have reached Kyle and Jeff" was some sort of gay couple (AND WHAT IF IT WAS!?) and it took quite awhile for me to figure out what in hell was the guy talking about??? Didn't have a clue who it was! Random calling gay-sniffers, I guess?? Another reason why I finally managed to get on here was that we went to Barnes & Noble today and in the used book section was "The Perfect Name" baby-naming book ... of which I have looked my name up in numerous ones of those all my life. There was "Kyla", with various derivatives like Kylie, Kyra, Kyren, Kylen, Kylwhatthefucken! NOT ONE PLAIN OL' "Kyle"!!!!! But, of course, in the boy's section: KYLE, Gaelic, Irish; a strait or narrow crossing ................ yes, tread lightly through this NARROW path of tolerance that is wearing thin of nearly always having to explain why I am named Kyle! Strangers will say: WHAT is your name??? What??? Maybe I should just make up some name.......come to think of it, I have a cousin whose name was Patricia, called Pat, and she decided her name was going to be Claire. So...anyone out there want to pick out a name for me? I actually DO love my name now, but I have to talk to enough people Monday-Friday without having to explain it to one more darned person!!! Cease and desist, people! If my name was Cuckamunga Laroughe, I wonder what anyone would say? Hey! I also heard that my mom was thinking of naming me after my grandmother on my dad's side ... Margaret Lola...but everyone called her Maggie (a name I really do love) and mom didn't want me to be called Maggie. I think it would've been simply divine if she would've named me Kyle Lola ... just say it a few times, doesn't it have a certain zing to it? KyleLola! I could run it together and pretend I was from Hawaii!! My mother's mother was named, true fact!! Pansy Blossom! What did that poor sweetheart have to go through!? Probably not half of what I've gone through. Anyone else out there have a difficult time with their given names??? Please ... let me know so I don't feel so alone. My mom, dad and brother have all died and I've no one to share this androgenous-ness with ... oh, yeah, there's Jimi Lee and Georgie, but we don't speak to each other .... where is the love, peoples??? Where is the tolerance? My name isn't Bob or John or Ron or Jeff! Of course you can add an "ie" or a "y" to about any name and make it cutesy. So...........you folks cut me some slack, OK? On facebook I put my name as KyleLynn ... not even thinking it'd sound more girlish ... but it seems to have worked. KyleLynn it is! VOILA!
Happy trails, Bloggie Souls! Sending you the highest and best from your SisSTAR! XOXOXOXO
Happy trails, Bloggie Souls! Sending you the highest and best from your SisSTAR! XOXOXOXO
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Remembering Mandy Girl
Hi there, Bloggie Souls! I have missed you so much! It has been such a blessing revisiting some of my faves listed at the bottom of my profile! Hi Holly, Hi Rhi, Hi Dancin', Hi Linn!!! Wish I would've "followed" more as I lost my "favorites" on the computer when switching browsers, didn't import when I'd thought they had. Waah!
Yes...Missing Mandy Girl...she's been dead 5 yrs now, shortly after my brother and cousin ... glad it is 5 yrs behind me, but it still threw me for a downturn the past while, coming out on the other side with good thoughts and pride in myself for having my "good grief" no matter what anyone else thought about my obsessiveness with thoughts of
DEATH! ;oD
I posted a few swiped photos from email fwds (don't you LOVE the "Laughin' Ass!" and that crazy pair of Dog/Orangutan! I posted that on my husband's facebook to give him a laugh when he woke up today. Yes, I've been on facebook WAAYYYY too much, but it's fun to get occasional instant return on small investments of posts and I just plain love bugging people! I am not a "friend hog" as I've rounded the corner to about 30, I guess...and 4 or 5 of those was the past week when I've gotten braver and more bolden and brass and accepted "strangers" into my circle. Some say it was because of my "humor" seen on their friends' posts from me. HUMOR? Moi? YA MON!
(I started a "Ya Mon!" comment which blazed a few tiny trails on fb pages, which was fun as it's a great comment for just about any post! It came about while viewing a fb friend in Florida's "night flight" on his bike and taking photos of various establishments and scenarios. One place just reminded me of Jamaican type stuff so the dreadlocks sprouted out of my pink head/white hairness and the urge to post YA MON! hit me. I think I've posted 100s now ... I try being a nuisance whenever it works ;oD
Well, me 'n Jeffrey just had freshly ground morning coffee with a Deep Intense dark chocolate Ghiardelli melted in the bottom and a dark chocolate Nonni Biscotti dunker(s)! Do you believe he was able to grind those beans forever and this SisSTAR was too busy in Dreamland to even hear him!??? And I am a very light sleeper! (except when I'm dreaming ... I probably incorporated the sound into those technicolor, way-too-busy scenes where I feel like I'm in a half dozen or so movies every night and esp early in the morning just before I wake up with a JOLT! and think, Wake Up, Kyle! Get up and get into Reality! Sometimes it's just exhausting to sleep ^;^
That's the problem with me blogging...the fingers don't know when to stop and I'm never quite sure if the brain is fully engaged @;@ One thing is for sure ... my regular wpm speed is 120 and give me this coffee extraordinaire and, well, I'm wide-awake buzzed on dark chocolate and coffee...and I rarely drink coffee or colas any more ... I get high sniffing Snapple tea! Truly I do! Let's just say I stayed up until 4 a.m. when I discovered that I still had Little Fish Tail blog and even realized that Second Edition (Holly, darling..) had commented 6 wks ago on a post of my own! Wowie! That was good for another hour until I realized if I was gonna share morning coffee treat with my Honey, I'd better get my ass to bed! Now I better get my bunnies offa here and get with the program. 1st x in quite awhile Jeff nor I have to work on a Saturday morning! Yeah!!! Fun things planned this weekend ... making it lazy and exhilarating all the same...and we are taking his sister, Linda, to Ruby Tuesday's tomorrow ... just found out she may very well be moving to Georgia by Labor Day! She lives about 10-12 miles away and we never visit each other! How dumb! We truly don't seem to miss people....
.....until they
are
GONE
...and so I'm missing Mandy Girl ... I put a really awesome lead crystal candlestick on her grave with a tan and white marble orb on top of it and when the Sun hits it it'll smack me right in the face and eyeballs from the kitchen window! BEAM!!!!
Love you, Mandy Girl!
xoxoxoxoxo
Love you Facebookies...so much!
XOXOXO
from your
SisSTAR
xo
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Where has the time gone!?
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Hello Again xo
Hello from your SisSTAR!!
Seems as though this summer is flying by and the heat has been tremendous, even for us Michigan folk! Yes, I hear that Texas has ben over 100 degrees for about a month?? Way over in some cases. I feel for ya there, peoples!! But this is Michigan and hitting 100 last one day so far. But it has been in the 90s for way too long to suit me. I am a winter baby and I can truthfully say that I don't mind winter, you can pile on clothing and bundle up in blankets, even IF we put our thermostat at 60 degrees! But in the summertime you can go buck naked and (OK, I'll speak for myself only here) and you can still sweat buckets. It always pours out of my head like a fountain (Fountainhead?) and falls in my eyes and funky-fies up my new glasses @;@ ... and I'm trying to be so very careful with them. At nearly $500 I don't want any scratches or ill-fitting going on. I spent a good 7-8 yrs with the same pair that was lopsided, scratched so bad, and the nosepieces had fallen off, metal cutting into my nose - ouch! and even though my wonderful husband had new bows put on for me, the crappy "faux metal" on the sides disintegrated quickly, making funky greenish marks on the sides of my head from the oxidation. It was a great look, let me tell ya!
Oh, by the way! The photo above is my new car! After 17 yrs but merely 101,500 miles! we had to give up on my 1994 T-Bird. Called the Vietnam Veterans of Michigan and they came and got it the next day. They were impressed by it, though. New tires...full tank of gas...air conditioning still worked, and they figured they could probably get $1,000 for it to help someone out along the way. That made me feel a lot better. Plus we were given a $1,700+ income tax deduction for next year's taxes. I never had a car for 17 years. It had 3 miles on it when we got it. The new one is a Saturn Aura XR 2007 with under 38,000. It is midnight blue with black leather interior (ouch in the sunshine!) with a "moon roof". In fact, mostly all I've been able to do is drive to and from work in bumper to bumper road construction traffic with hardly enough time to listen to one song on the CD player. So last night after leaving work and a friend's house, I was hearing a particularly wonderful new CD my husband bought by Warren Haynes (google him, he's awesome!) and the blues he was singing and playing was so wonderful that I just drove right past our road and kept on going ... 50 mph on the straight-away ... not sure how many miles I drove, but I just kept going and going and turning left and left and left and circling around and then going down neighborhood roads, like I was showing Aura Lee the neighborhood (it's taken me awhile to 'like' her since I was so in love with Birdie and didn't want to give her up) ... The sky was just after sunset and was filled with stormy grey/blue and pink clouds which looked awesome out the moon roof. I just kept singing and driving ... and finally went home happy.
I have been on a crash course of seeing old friends and talking to old friends on the phone and this past week just since Sunday have or talked to 9 people including their little dogs and cats (who all loved me, too) You see, normally I'm quite a hermitess soon as I get out of work and I want nothing more than to come home and be quiet and have some dinner and wait for my honey who gets home quite late. More often than not I get on Facebook and spent waaayyyyy too much time on there, which explains why I have hardly posted on my blog for months! (I'm sorry, Bloggies ... I've missed you a lot! It just seems easier with lots more interaction with others on Facebook...but this Blog is a lot more me ... private except for those who might stop by. Probably most will stop stopping by since I'm rarely posting anything new. I keep telling myself "I'm gonna write on my blog" and then....whap! back to Facebook 2-3 times a day sometimes! I have, however, reconnected with some old friends from waaayyyy back in school days and some family members I'd lost touch with, so it has been rewarding.)
Well, I do sincerely hope to rekindle with some of my favorite bloggers, ie Rhiannon, Dancin' Fool, Imran and Sandpiper ... and maybe even meet some new folks. I have a small follow(s) bunch on here but not that they've posted comments. That's OK, though. If anything resonates with you, happy to know it, if not, happy you at least came by once to see what you can see.
Here's hoping all of you Bloggie Souls are having a safe and beautiful summer and that for you, wherever you are, Summertime...and the living is easy...fish are jumpin' and the cotton is high. Your Mama's rich and your Daddy's good lookin', so hush! little Babies, don't you cry!
Keep Cool ... Live in Love and Compassion for others ... and know that
Your SisSTAR Loves You!!!
XOXOXOXO
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From OSHO on WORTH
Meditation for the Day
from OSHO's Transformation Tarot
10. Worth
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On the virtues of uselessness
Don't be bothered too much about utilitarian ends. Rather, constantly remember that you are not here in life to become a commodity. You are not here to become a utility--that is below dignity. You are not here just to become more and more efficient--you are here to become more and more alive; you are here to become more and more intelligent; you are here to become more and more happy, ecstatically happy.
Lao Tzu was traveling with his disciples and they came to a forest where hundreds of carpenters were cutting trees, because a great palace was being built.
Almost the whole forest had been cut, but one tree was standing there, a big tree with thousands of branches--so big that ten thousand persons could sit under its shade. Lao Tzu asked his disciples to go and inquire why this tree had not been cut yet, when the whole forest had been cut and was deserted.
The disciples went and they asked the carpenters, "Why have you not cut this tree?"
The carpenters said, "This tree is absolutely useless. You cannot make anything out of it because every branch has so many knots in it. Nothing is straight. You cannot make pillars out of it, you cannot make furniture out of it. You cannot use it as fuel because the smoke is so dangerous to the eyes--you almost go blind. This tree is absolutely useless. That's why."
They came back. Lao Tzu laughed and he said, "Be like this tree. If you want to survive in this world be like this tree--absolutely useless. Then nobody will harm you. If you are straight you will be cut, you will become furniture in somebody's house. If you are beautiful you will be sold in the market, you will become a commodity. Be like this tree, absolutely useless. Then nobody can harm you. And you will grow big and vast, and thousands of people can find shade under you."
Lao Tzu has a logic altogether different from your mind. He says: Be the last. Move in the world as if you are not. Remain unknown. Don't try to be the first, don't be competitive, don't try to prove your worth. There is no need. Remain useless and enjoy.
Of course he is impractical. But if you understand him you will find that he is the most practical on a deeper layer, in the depth--because life is to enjoy and celebrate, life is not to become a utility. Life is more like poetry than like a commodity in the market; it should be like poetry, a song, a dance.
Lao Tzu says: If you try to be very clever, if you try to be very useful, you will be used. If you try to be very practical, somewhere or other you will be harnessed, because the world cannot leave the practical man alone. Lao Tzu says: Drop all these ideas. If you want to be a poem, an ecstasy, then forget about utility. Remain true to yourself.
Copyright © 2011 Osho International Foundation
from OSHO's Transformation Tarot
10. Worth
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On the virtues of uselessness
Don't be bothered too much about utilitarian ends. Rather, constantly remember that you are not here in life to become a commodity. You are not here to become a utility--that is below dignity. You are not here just to become more and more efficient--you are here to become more and more alive; you are here to become more and more intelligent; you are here to become more and more happy, ecstatically happy.
Lao Tzu was traveling with his disciples and they came to a forest where hundreds of carpenters were cutting trees, because a great palace was being built.
Almost the whole forest had been cut, but one tree was standing there, a big tree with thousands of branches--so big that ten thousand persons could sit under its shade. Lao Tzu asked his disciples to go and inquire why this tree had not been cut yet, when the whole forest had been cut and was deserted.
The disciples went and they asked the carpenters, "Why have you not cut this tree?"
The carpenters said, "This tree is absolutely useless. You cannot make anything out of it because every branch has so many knots in it. Nothing is straight. You cannot make pillars out of it, you cannot make furniture out of it. You cannot use it as fuel because the smoke is so dangerous to the eyes--you almost go blind. This tree is absolutely useless. That's why."
They came back. Lao Tzu laughed and he said, "Be like this tree. If you want to survive in this world be like this tree--absolutely useless. Then nobody will harm you. If you are straight you will be cut, you will become furniture in somebody's house. If you are beautiful you will be sold in the market, you will become a commodity. Be like this tree, absolutely useless. Then nobody can harm you. And you will grow big and vast, and thousands of people can find shade under you."
Lao Tzu has a logic altogether different from your mind. He says: Be the last. Move in the world as if you are not. Remain unknown. Don't try to be the first, don't be competitive, don't try to prove your worth. There is no need. Remain useless and enjoy.
Of course he is impractical. But if you understand him you will find that he is the most practical on a deeper layer, in the depth--because life is to enjoy and celebrate, life is not to become a utility. Life is more like poetry than like a commodity in the market; it should be like poetry, a song, a dance.
Lao Tzu says: If you try to be very clever, if you try to be very useful, you will be used. If you try to be very practical, somewhere or other you will be harnessed, because the world cannot leave the practical man alone. Lao Tzu says: Drop all these ideas. If you want to be a poem, an ecstasy, then forget about utility. Remain true to yourself.
Copyright © 2011 Osho International Foundation
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