SisSTARS for PEACE ... Proud to be for Peace and Love...War is Not an Answer!
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them--that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." -Lao-Tse
"The fates lead him who will--him who won't, they drag." -Seneca

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Full Moon Croon

Preparing for a 4-day weekend ahead and sending Love and Peace to all those who stop by. I would like to post a few items now that I read late last night. I have many books transcribed from talks given by the "politically incorrect mystic" (as he called himself) Osho. I also have the metaphysical "tool" published after his death, Zen Tarot. Last night before I went to sleep, I chose a card which turned out to be "Let Go" ... and this a.m. I chose a card called "Aloneness". I would like to transcribe both of those here for anyone who might find something poignant in them as I did. I feel a little too weary myself to compose much in the way of a post, but that doesn't mean I don't want to share something with you. Forgive me for now and then using others' words to convey something I deem important, so that you will know that I am thinking of you and sending you my love, from your SisSTAR xo.
#8 from Water: Emotions...LETTING GO
In existence there is nobody who is superior and nobody who is inferior. The blade of grass and the great star are absolutely equal...But man wants to be higher than others, he wants to conquer nature, hence he has to fight continuously. All complexity arises out of this fight. The innocent person is one who has renounced fighting; who is no longer interested in being higher, who is no longer interested in performing, in proving that he is someone special; who has become like a roseflower or like a dewdrop on the lotus leaf; who has become part of this infinity; who has melted, merged and become one with the ocean and is just a wave; who has no idea of the "I". The disappearance of the "I" is innocense.
Commentary: In th is image of lotus leaves in the early morning, we can see in the rippling of the water that one drop has just fallen. It is a precious moment, and one that is full of poignancy. In surrendering to gravity and slipping off the leaf, the drop loses its previous identity and joins the vastness of the water below. We can imagine that it must have trembled before it fell, just on the edge between the known and the unknowable.*To choose this card is a recognition that something is finished, something is completing. Whatever it is--a job, a relationship, a home you have loved, anything that might have helped you to define who you are--it is time to let go of it, allowing any sadness but not trying to hold on. Something greater is awaiting you, new dimensions are there to be discovered. You are past the point of no return now, and gravity is doing its work. Go with it--it represents liberation.
When you are alone you are not alone, you are simply lonely--and there is a tremendous difference between loneliness and aloneness. When you are lonely you are thinking of the other, you are missing the other. Loneliness is a negative state. You are feeling that it would have been better if the other was there--your friend, your wife, your mother, your beloved, your husband. It would have been good if the other was there, but the other is not.
Loneliness is absence of the other. Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive. It is a presence, overflowing presence. You are so full of presence that you can fill the whole universe with your presence and there is no need for anybody.
When there is no 'significant other' in our lives we can either be lonely, or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings. When we find no support among others for our deeply felt truths, we can either feel isolated and bitter, or celebrate the fact that our vision is strong enough even to survive the powerful human need for the approval of family, friends or colleagues. If you are facing such a situation now, be aware of how you are choosing to view your 'aloneness' and take responsibility for the choice you have made.*The humble figure in this card glows with a light that emanates from within. One of Gautam Buddha's most significant contributions to the spiritual life of humankind was to insist to his disciples, "Be a light unto yourself." Ultimately, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide.
And one more from Guide for the Advanced Soul (as from previous post) .... I will open the book up to whatever page my Higher Self chooses, just for all of YOU out there ... for a special message for your Memorial Day weekend, as you remember those who have gone before you, as you understand that you a "Light Unto Yourself" and I honor you as I do those I remember with love and respect and the highest and best Life has to offer:
(wait for it............;oD.......drum roll............)
"Have you learned lessons only
of those who admired you,
and were tender with you,
and stood aside for you?
Have you not learned
great lessons
from those who braced
themselves against you,
and disputed the passage
with you?"
--Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass
"Rest satisfied with doing well,
leave others to talk of you
as they will."
With Love from Your

Thursday, May 20, 2010


God picks up the reed-flute
world and blows.
Each note is a need coming
through one of us,
a passion,
a longing pain.
Remember the lips
where the wind-breath
and let your note be clear.
Don't try to end it.
Be your note.
I'll show you how it's enough.
Go up on the roof at night,
in this city of the soul.
Let everyone climb on their roofs
and sing their notes!
Sing loud!
(from A Guide for
the Advanced Soul
created and handwritten by
Susan Hayward-
copyright 1984)

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Let the Sun Shine

After so much rain and thunderstorms for days on end, it is a gloriously beautiful Saturday and I wanted to wish everyone a happy and loving weekend. This photo was from a friend's blog as he wrote about his friend's death as a tribute to her ... I wanted to copy the photo here with the intention that all of us have had losses of friends and loved ones and those losses impact our lives in many ways. Sometimes it has felt like my whole life has been one of loss and grief of some form. I want to honor those who are grieving or ill or considering losses of various forms, be they actual deaths or the demise of a certain relationship, the loss of a beloved pet, the loss of what "might have been" in many scenarios. I know from my experience that to be brave enough to face my losses and grieve has not always made me popular with others, but with plumbing the depths of my grief feelings, I have learned that I am far more capable of feeling the joy and love of life even more, and realizing that life is very short ... then those others who have not always appreciated my sorrow, depression or sadness on the one end of the spectrum are fully able to enjoy the laughter, happiness, lovingkindness, peace, joy, humor, acceptance of others, that I am able to muster on the other end of the spectrum. Feel your feelings, people ... it's not always necessary to wallow or dwell, but it is important to FEEL and, for my own desire, to understand, if not the "others", then to understand myself. That's been important to me most of my life. So enjoy the rain and the sunshine, the flowers and the weeds, the mud and the grass, the lush greenery leafing out everywhere ... enjoy your own image in your mirrors and realize that, with a sense of wonder and amazement, and with a bit of imagination, joining you in that mirror image are all those "others" who you've known, who have taught you by example good or bad, who have impacted your life and who may or may not still be actively a part presently. Let go of sadness as you can and open to the wonder of joy-filled moments. Reflect back to everyone the pure YOU that resides within you and resonates out and away, blessing others as you are blessed by others. I sincerely feel blessed by you out there, and I send you my love ... from

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Over the Hump Day TGIW

What a pair!
I ran across a few things after an old friend stopped to bring me 2 photos she'd found of her mother's. My mother had given her mom 5x7 photos of me and my baby brother when I was under 2 and he was just a few weeks old. Seeing that photo of my brother really brought a sting to my heart. I was happy to have the picture and talk with an old family friend. Her family hadn't known my brother died nearly 4 yrs ago so it was fresh ... and the respect and profound understanding I felt when both of our eyes teared up. Her mom was like a wonderful aunt or 2nd mom. She died 10 yrs ago. Whenever I get nostalgic, I seem to rummage through my "stuff" -- be it old photos, letters, poetry, writings, articles, cards, etc. That is what I did when I got home from work and was alone ... rummage. So, wanting to share a few of my old "writings" I thought I'd post a blog. I'm pretty sure I posted "Ize Have It" before, but I want to again, so bear with me. The other seems to be an answer to the proclamation at the top of the notepad: "Things to do:"..........
(so, here follows that)
Go to work late--breathe deeply
Leave work early--don't look back
Write lists of "TO DO" -- look at 'em a few days, weeks, months ... and cross many off as lack of time, real interest isn't hard to find -- it hits you in the gut and a tingly, exciting feeling bursts through.
You are goin' on down the road, feeling bad -- would rather not be in the situation I've had to be -- errant way, trespassing on my Soul with your thoughts setting things clear for us to hear, fear or cheer!!
I choose cheer!!!
Burma Shave
Choo Choo
chugga chugga
Choo choo choo
"keep laughin' honey!"
Today should I:
patronize or
Or should I:
and close my eyes
to the
few tries
to recognize and
reasons for my
heavy sighs?
--no more
--no more
--no more need
to eulogize.
--klh xo