SisSTARS for PEACE ... Proud to be for Peace and Love...War is Not an Answer!
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them--that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like." -Lao-Tse
"The fates lead him who will--him who won't, they drag." -Seneca

Saturday, March 28, 2009

A Poem...


look within, be not afraid to feel whatever's there
first step is to look inside, don't hide from your own fear
face it, the disgrace you felt was undeserved, let go
pull the curtain up and let the Light shine through to you
slow your steps, turn back, don't run away from the Child within

take her gently by the hand get to know her, cry
hold her closely on your lap, see if she will smile
she is that deep part of you you've suppressed so long
she won't die, tho' you've wanted her to, but she's always been among
your terror, anger, rage and doubts of your own sanity
the babe began her life involved in hushed profanity
forgive, forgive again! what do you have to lose?
confront the horrors you perceive that were a part of you
cry out in rage and beat your fists, fight the ghosts inside
they will not die, they cannot die if you must live that lie
dig up the hurts, cut them to shreds, embrace the Child within
get to learn to give her love, the love she never had

dig up the fears, the reasons why your hardened heart's so cold
then read your story like a book before you grow too old
don't let what's buried deep inside destroy your Here and Now
dig it up and look at it then if you think you could
burn it in a funeral pyre and let it go for good

let the young girl hid within find her real Soul
realize she is your strength, the way to feel more whole
to her be kind with gentleness and help her feel at ease
then you shall integrate yourself and truly live in peace.

-klh, 2/94

Saturday, March 21, 2009

spring is for bunnies

Click here to watch bunnies and bunny wannabes ;oD

So Punny I Forgot To Laugh

She was only a whiskey maker,
but he loved her still.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It's my duty to say "howdy"

Haven't felt much like writing lately, even though there's a myriad of thoughts doing their best to keep me awake all night, or dreaming up a storm ... a real maelstrom going on in Dreamland (I love that word "maelstrom" ... if I ever had a rock band, I'd call it that ;o) When I need to get up in the a.m. for work and have insomnia, then sometimes I take my "anxiety" medicine and it either works sorta good or too good ... and if it's too good I feel blase most the day. My feet feel like they weigh 20 lbs apiece and I trundle through the day like a big ol' robotics woman - ugh!
I came home after working today and shortly thereafter went to bed, until the cat woke me up so he could go outside. Why couldn't that furball just cozy up to me and sleep, too? No, he has to pick the rocking chair. I spent most the night in bed reading after that, to keep off my legs and feet and give my body a rest, reading the 2nd book my 95 yr old cousin wrote that I'd never gotten around to finishing years ago. His 93 yr old brother just died and it made me want to read it. This cousin is the very last one from my father's generation alive. I wonder what it feels like to be 95? I keep saying I feel "90" sometimes...I don't think that does me much good in the way of "affirmations" or "affirming" my youthful 57 yrs ;o) ... but I sure don't feel 18 or 30 or 40 or 50! And it seems like I'm feeling too old to be 57 even. Perhaps I just have the beginnings of spring fever, the Equinox coming up in less than 2 days! It's been in the 60s and the snow got all rained away and the sun has been out ... there's been activity in the pond and we have lots of robins hopping around! Tuffy wants to be outside a lot longer. It just isn't right for me to want to "hibernate" right now! I'll still blame it on daylight savings time, damn it! Or on one of my favorite shows Kyle XY's last episode Monday night, which ended like a stupid cliffhanger when they say it is the final episode. I've watched every episode for 3 seasons. Yes, the name was catchy ;o) but it was a really good show, too. I guess there just wasn't enough sex and ignorance in it for the network to continue. I signed the petition to keep it, anyway, or I hope another network signs it on.
The new calendar we chose for 2009 has "a cat a day" and it is so cute. It pretty much has a photo of a cat or 2 together stretched out for 2 days, making it quite a large calendar, but it's so cute. Have to shine a light on it so we can see it. Each cat has its name and location underneath it. And the best part, it was about $1.50 at Border's with our coupons and discounts, though $16 originally (I think).
I'm going to reprint a poem from my cousin Clive's book (my dad's 1st cousin--his dad and my father's dad were brothers, my grandfather having died 3/17/1918!!! and I wonder why I feel old?!) I don't think he'll mind because he admits himself that he likes others to read what he writes. Just let him come and get me if he doesn't like it! ;o)

The Trail That Runs Forever
As a child I used to walk the beach
And wander through the solitude
Amid the bluffs and hillsides
'Twixt Otter Creek and Empire,
Until the long trail called me.
The long trail,
The lone trail,
The trail that runs forever.
The long trail, the lone trail
That somehow always brought me
Back to my bluffs and hillsides,
To my beach and solitude,
'Twixt Otter Creek and Empire.
And round and round,
And round and round,
The long trail always caught me
And I wandered far
And I have seen
Some strange and distant places,
On the long trail,
The lone trail,
The trail that runs forever,
But that somehow always brought me
Back to the hills
And beach side,
'Twixt Otter Creek and Empire.
Till, though the long trail called me,
My journeyings grew shorter,
Till now I seldom go beyond
The reach of one days travel.
But if I couldn't
Have my Lake
My whole life would unravel!
Now, since they've made a Park here,
The fools come by the thousands,
To loll, nude, upon the beaches
Courting cataracts and cancer.
So now, while summer's with us,
The only solitude I'm finding
Is to rise and walk the beach
Rather early in the morning,
Or at night, beneath the moon.
And I hear the long trail calling,
The long trail,
The lone trail,
The trail that runs forever.
And I wish that I could wander
But the years are long behind me
And in a few I will be going
Down the long trail,
The lone trail,
The trail that runs forever.
And the fools can have the beaches
For I'll come back here never,
To seek again
My beach and bluff
And the solitude
And hillsides,
'Twixt Otter Creek and Empire.
But somewhere in another world
I'll still go on and onward.
And maybe somewhere out there,
By that trail that runs forever,
I'll find some hills and beaches
And the solitude I'm needing.
And, who knows, I may find someone
To walk the beaches with me,
And talk of things that matter,
Instead of idle chatter.
While the stars swing in their courses,
And the eons roll behind us,
On the long trail,
The lone trail,
The trail that runs forever.
--tFr/Clive W. Haswell
(tFr stands for "the frustrated rover")
Happy Spring if I don't get back here before then, my dearest Bloggie Souls.
Namaste -- Om Shanti/Shanti Om
Peace Out, SisSTARS and Bruthas!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Daylight Savings and up at noon

Hi there, Bloggies. I must say I don't like this fake time stuff messing with my sleep! Jeff and I were having a great time watching a movie called SWING last night and then playing some games on the computer, when all of a sudden the computer time changed from 2 to 3 a.m.! We weren't even tired! He remembered he was picking his buddy up to go see Watchmen at IMAX at 10 a.m. this morning and it was well nigh 4 a.m. before we went to bed. I finally crawled out at noon after getting up 4 times or so feeling all grogged out. I was dreaming about my aunt and mother who have died and it was quite a lucid dream so I wanted to stay in it and then write it down afterwards. It felt so good to hug my mother again, and talk with my aunt nonchallantly, like no big deal.
I posted this oil painting I bought years ago from a coworker/friend. I just clicked on an anonymous photo from my "practice digitals" and came up with this because it was #8 (like today) so I kept it because I love it and because it looks a little skewed like I feel. There's a beauty to this painting I've always loved, like it is waterlilies in a pond, but also like it is waterlilies floating in the sky. Beneath the photo I have a quotation by the Dalai Lama: "Some people look at the muddy bottom of the swamp. Others contemplate the lotus flowers on the water surface. It is a choice." I believe I've posted that quote elsewhere in my blog because I love it. It says so much to me. Look at the lotus, dear friends and loved ones. The mud is needed for the nourishment and to help it bloom.
I am happy to know that my friend SisSTAR Rhi in Oregon will be moving into her very own home within the next month. She has been waiting a very long time and living with others, a difficult thing to do in the most ideal situations. Way to go, SisSTAR! I look fwd to hearing about all the joys of solitude, new friends, new happenings, and your kitty having lots more room to roam around and explore new surroundings, which I know! you will make beautiful for your soul's nourishment and peace.
By the way, the movie SWING Jeff and I were watching was from the Spiritual Cinema subscription we have, which sends a DVD about once a month for approx $24 which has at least 1 full length movie and 3 or more shorter movies, all of which you would very rarely ever see anywhere else. "Swing" was just awesome. I highly recommended this beautiful tool for viewing positive, life affirming movies, all of which elevate your consciousness and spirit and leave you feeling good or healed in some way.
Right now I'm listening to Jeff's new Robin Trower CD. We get Border's bookstore coupons online all the time and we flock in to see if there's any special treats we can get for not so much money. Since my friend Rhi had posted an Enigma video/song, I got myself one of that group's which had the song she'd posted on it. Both CDs are most welcome entertainment for us. I know this Robin Trower "another days blues" right now is energizing and soothing. I love the blues. We have a big electric blue poster in here with what looks like 2 giant nuclear reactors on it with lightning connecting them that I bought at a Trower concert we went to Sept 2001, just a short time after 9/11. It says "Go My Way" and "trowerpower". I remember wearing my beautiful hand tooled cowgirl boots which were just a teeny too tight and having to stand up all night long. Needless to say, I'm not going to any more concerts that require standing room only, and I gave my boots away to my buddy Kristine (I hope she can wear them!) One of my favorites by him is "About To Begin" a short, beautiful blues ballad. Let me know if you've ever heard it.
The book I'm reading "The Wise Heart" by Jack Kornfield (have I mentioned this already?) had a "prayer/meditation/you make the call" which has left an impression on me as being most helpful to my own self, stating it for myself and others. If I've already posted it, it won't hurt to amplify its awesomeness here:
"May you all be held in compassion.
May your suffering and pain find ease.
May you all be at peace."
Feel the strength and beauty in that, my dear Bloggie Souls. I send you off to "spring forward" into this crazy "daylight savings time" (unless you're the lucky ones who don't get their 'time' messed with!) and wish you special weeks ahead. Twelve days until official Vernal Equinox! It's been raining here solid for 2 days--the mud will bring beauty, I just know it will. Wallow in it if you must, but then bloom, baby, bloom!
Sending love from your
SisSTAR Kylita xoxoxox
p.s. Jeff just returned from seeing Watchmen movie...the rain had leaked thru the roof ruining their IMAX film at a cost of $30,000! But they got to watch it 5 rows back on their regular theater for half the price (hence, popcorn, etc) and said it was the best. He was very enthusiastic about it, so that makes me happy.